11.05.2010

"the Lord is good and does good"

So the day finally came! Our new placement has arrived as of 10.27.10.
There are few experiences in life that can rival the thrill of getting a call in the afternoon that a new little addition is about to bless your life in just a few short hours. Talk about an adrenaline rush! Thoughts of how the placement might go, what the little one will look like, what his/her name will be, wondering what he/she is coming from, etc. etc. consume me.
We are thrilled to have this little guy- for however short or long it may be. For the purposes of this blog, we will call him Baby J. or "Little Swoosh".
To give you an idea of what Little Swoosh looks like- I think Offensive Lineman sums it up quite nicely. For just being almost 3 months old, this little man is a football player in the making. He may be hitting the field by next week at this rate.
As of last Saturday, Little Swoosh has started ooo-ing and coo-ing like it's going out of style! He already knows how to work us. This could mean trouble when he gets older. It's too late. We're already wrapped around his little finger!

Little Swoosh has also already enjoyed his first Auburn Football game with the Austin-Auburn club. Of course he helped to cheer them on to yet another victory!!

My burden lately has been for our placement's families in addition to the kiddos themselves. I have been praying desperately for healing in their lives as well as for their kids. After attending my PESA training class through Casey Family Services, I have been so touched by stories of various biological parents who have had children removed. Society tends to write them off as being the "bad guys" (and yes, there has been wrong that has been done). As a believer, however, I have to believe that the blood of Christ is strong enough for any sin. No sinner is beyond saving. Not that their sin is condoned of course, but I have to believe that there is hope.

This still doesn't erase my hurt for Baby J. There are moments when I am sitting on the couch feeding him and I am overcome with emotions of deep grief as I think about what he's experienced in his short life. I've been listening to this song often, thinking that this may be the song of his life.

Here are the lyrics:
"In His Hands" by JJ Heller

I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave...
I never leave Your hands
 
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still